We've told our friends and family, made it Facebook official, yet I realized I never mentioned
it in my blog, so here we go...Ryan and I are expecting baby number three!
A baby boy on July 10th to be exact.
Normally I would have mentioned it much sooner, but after going through the miscarriages
I've noticed myself holding back a little bit. Not that I am not excited, because I am beyond
excited. But I find myself holding back on the things I normally do during my pregnancies.
Fewer journal entries, fewer belly pics, not checking my pregnancy app to find what new
and exciting tip they have for me that day. Maybe I'm protecting myself from getting too
emotionally invested, or maybe it is simply a lack of time. Life with two toddlers can
be surprisingly crazy busy! But it's weird because at times it's almost like I forget about
being pregnant. I don't think ahead much to life with three. I haven't spent much time
envisioning the amazing day when the baby is born, other than to be terrified of whether or
not I'll make it to the hospital on time. It's just feels really weird.
I'm hopeful that once my belly starts getting bigger and I feel the baby moving around more
everything will become more real. I also have my big 20 week ultrasound in 2 weeks and I
always feel way more connected after seeing the baby. Until then I'm making a
conscious effort to take my belly pics and write in my journal because I know
there will be a time when I want to look back on it.
9 Weeks 11 Weeks
15 Weeks 18 Weeks
And when it comes down to it, no matter how much I hold myself back, I am still so excited
to meet this little guy. I'm excited to see what he will look like. Redhead? Blonde? Or
perhaps a brunette this time? I'm excited to give Owen and Joe another brother and see
how much fun they have together. Owen keeps asking if his baby is here yet. :) It will be
fun to see how they react the first time they meet him. I'm looking forward to starting our life
as a family of five complete with all the craziness it is sure to bring. Emotionally I may be
holding back a little, but it won't stop me from feeling all the exciting things that are to come.
Sometimes little reminders and daydreaming are all that it takes.
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